Last night, someone I really admire and have cried for and prayed for over this year, posted the most amazing picture on Instagram of her secret surprise baby boy! Her and her husband were able to adopt a three year old baby boy yesterday and now they have three little boys. I am so happy for them after all that they have been through with a mom changing her mind in the final months of pregnancy in January to having a baby placed with their family for three days in August and having to return it to the birthmom because the birthdad was not on board. They have been through so much and I am thrilled for them to have finally found the baby meant to be in their family.
It made me think though. All those years of waiting to have a baby join our family, I always wondered how it was going to happen. Worrying, researching, praying, baring my soul to friends, crying and more crying and finally resolution in the birth of our amazing son and the selfless decision his birthmom made. I have felt such peace that everything leading him to joining our family was exactly as it should have been. That Heavenly Father does have an glorious plan for us.
But now, here I am back at the beginning, wondering and thinking about how the next little one will join our family. I honesty have no idea. It feels like starting all over, which it basically is. I know that so many miracles led us to finding Bennett and I have no doubt that miracles will be involved in our next child coming into our family. However, I am a planner still...even after learning last time to turn my life over to the Lord, I still struggle doing it again.
Yes, Bennett is only 14 months but doesn't every mom start thinking about the next one at some point or another. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for Bennett and recognize how lucky we are to have him. But when we got married we wanted a big family, like 6 kids. Which was a compromise for us coming from a family of 10 and a family of 4. Now I think we will be lucky to have 2 or 3. It is all an unknown. I am trying to just look forward with hope and positivity in watching it all unfold...
I'm sure it will be wilder than my fondest dreams :)
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Hi. I'm David Merrill's sister. I enjoyed your post. We've been lucky to have been able to adopt 2 boys. We're starting on our 3rd adoption. Thank you for your words. They were very comforting.
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