Dear Baby...

This is not really for anyone else but me and of course to the sweet little babe that will hopefully be joining us soon. I dream about you every night. I think about what you will look like, whether you will have dark eyes or green eyes or even blue eyes. I never thought it would even be possible for me to have a child with light colored eyes, but I guess with adoption anything is possible. I wonder if you will have curly hair or no hair and if you will get the baby mullet that so many babies seem to develop. I wonder if you will love me anywhere near as much as I love you already. I don't know you yet, but my spirit knows you and I feel yours around me often. My heart aches to hold you because I know that you are close. I get teary eyed just thinking about the day when I will finally have you in my arms and know that you are mine. I pray for you every night wherever you are. I pray for your birthmom, that she is okay, that she is being taken care of, that she has good friends and family looking out for her. I pray that I will be a good mom, that taking care of you will come naturally, that I can be in tune with your needs and what Heavenly Father wants for you in life. I know that Josh is going to be the best dad ever. I watch him with your future cousins and smile because as much fun as he has with them, I know that he has even more love to give and so much more adventures and laughs to have with you. I love you sweet baby and wherever you are, I am praying and working on preparing myself in everyway for you to be in our home. I am trying so hard to be patient and wait for you...but please if you can, don't take too much longer. It's seems like a lifetime already, just looking forward to you. 

Love, Your Mommy